Sunday, November 23, 2008

Empty and Numb

This past week has been an emotional roller coaster and I HATE roller coasters! Last Saturday my mom went into cardiac arrest outside of her apartment building, she was found by a neighbor who called 911. They originally took her to Alta View Hospital but then life flighted her to Intermountain Medical Center. They placed her in a drug induced coma and on life support while conducting many many tests to determine how much damage occurred to her brain. Nathan and I drove as fast as we legally could down to Salt Lake to be with her and my family. We prayed as much as we could but she was not ment to be with us. Our family terminated life support on thursday because there was nothing else the doctors could do and she wasn't going to ever recover. She was only 48. She was my best friend and I miss her more than anything, these last few years we've become exceptionally close. I just can't picture her gone, the fact that she'll never call me again or send Nathan and I candy corn randomly throughout october with funny cards. This has been the hardest week of my life-I'm really struggling with the fact that she is gone, it happened so fast and so unexpectedly. Always hold close to your family, you never know when they will be taken from you. I do not wish this pain on anyone-

3 comments:

Janus said...

Stephanie,
We are so sorry and have truly felt a deep sorrow. I just feel there are no words to express how sorry we are that this happened. Please know that we love you and Nathan and pray that you both will feel the love of the Savior during this difficult time in your lives.

Our prayers are with you and Nathan, even Alexis prays for you to feel comfort during this time.

We love you--
Janus, Grant and Alexis

Crystal Bjork said...

steph
i am so sorry iwish i could be there to give you a hugbut that just is not possible i know that we may not know why god wants us to endure hardships that break our hearts but i do know that he has a plan and that he will provide the comfort and strength needed to get through tough times in our lives. i personally know that he will bring all of us through those roller coasters that we each hate. i hope you find some joy throughthe holiday season and that you will draw closer to the savior.

rachwheel said...

Oh Steph, we love you! I hope things have settled a little more. And that you are doing a little better hopefully! Think of it this way, your Mom gets to know her future grandchildren and will surely be taking good care of them for you until it's their turn to come join your family. That'll be a good connection to her. This life is truly so short, but when we're young it seems so long. It'll just go faster and faster.
We'll keep you in our prayers and love you both very much. You will know in the future how to console those who will go through what you're going through now.
Take care of each other!!
Rachael