Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Up and Down, Up and Down

This week has been such a emotional roller coaster week. This week marks the one year mark of my mom being gone which has created feelings of sadness and dissociation. Trying to deal with feelings of grief while being pregnant is no easy task. One minute I'm weeping and the next minute I'm giggling because Lentil is using me as a punching bag. I think the hardest part of dealing with the feelings of not having my mom around is that I'm pregnant with our Lentil who will be my daughter, and I was my mom's first. I miss the mom/daughter bond that I'm creating with Lentil.

On a happier note, Nathan was able to feel Lentil moving for the first time, which is making this pregnancy less one sided. We are still debating around names- its a good thing we have four months left, we'll need all of that time to decide on a name. We are soooo incredibly grateful for Lentil and the healing she is bringing to the family. She has already blessed this family in more ways then she'll ever know.

Another happy tidbit that I'm excited to share is that my little sister's art is featured in an art exhibit in the Rio Gallery in Salt Lake City. We are so proud of her and we can't wait to check out the exhibit! She has three pieces in the Art Beyond Boundaries Exhibit, which features work from artists who have disabilities. Here is the website for more information- http://library.utah.gov/events/art2009.html

5 comments:

Jessica Madsen said...

I bet it is hard. I am hear for you if you evr need domeont to talk,or e-mail;) jessica.prince@hotmailcom. You are going t be a terific mother just like your mothr is, and shewil be sending her love, no doubt! congrats to your sister. It sounds like you have a very talented family! miss you guys!

Amber said...

Just think, lentil has met your mother & when she arrives, I'm sure you'll have that feeling that reassures your faith of FOREVER families! I hope you are doing ok & I'm glad you can share your pregnancy with Nathan. You're going to be an AMAZING mother!!!

Shayla and James said...

Oh Steph,
I can just imagine though the bond that is being created above with your precious lentil and wonderful mom-How great that she does get time with her-Families truly are forever!!!!
I want you to know that you've truly been on my mind this week as I realized it was a year anniversary. Know that tender mercies are surrounding you-especially with Nate and this baby growing inside you :)
I am glad she is moving around and bringing you blessings and smiles.
Know I am here too if you need anything at all!

Mom W. said...

The Brady's posted my feelings. This little sweetheart will be bringing sweet messages from heaven. Those eternal chains are growing. Love you both so much.

Julianna and Mark Weeks and Family said...

If it's any consolation, we had Jared's frist name pick out, but finding a middle name well we didn't officially decide on that until after Jared was born & they handed us the birth certificate and even then we stalled a few days. (with a c-section your in the hospital longer than if you go natural.)